Learning how to not clean up. - Thursday's Thoughts
I've talked before about having OCD and Anxiety. Well, a huge trigger for my OCD is a messy house. My anxiety and depression flourishes in a messy chaotic environment. As a teenager, before I learned about healthy coping mechanisms and such, my room used to be a disaster area. It would get so bad and I would feel so overwhelmed with not knowing where to start to clean it up that I would just ignore it until it became so unmanageable that my mom would have to step it and throw almost everything away. It was bad. As an adult, I am what they call a neat freak . I clean everyday, and by clean I mean, vacuum my couch and my floors, I dust, organize, sweep if necessary, the dishes get done everyday, I do it all. I do not go to bed at night until my house is tidy and everything is clean and perfect. I used to think this was a great way to manage my anxiety, however over the years it's actually become a huge source of anxiety for me. Lets face it, sometimes I don't
